As the time for my placement test draws closer (no official deadline, but I've got to do it sometime very soon now), I've started to panic again. It's a bit odd, since I've never been a habitual worrier over tests. I suppose it's a mixture of a: not having taken any tests in a long time now, b: being a fairly important test in progressing my personal plans, and c: me having not done particularly well on my last tests in law school.
Panic is bad.
The worst part is that it stops me from studying. I pick up my books, my heart starts jumping around, and I can't focus to save my life. I imagine that'd be equally bad on the actual test. It's also a state of mind that feeds itself. The more you panic, the more you think about what can go wrong and what's at stake (Not even objectively... what's at stake is big, but it's not life-ending if I can't place. I could probably take gen chem first, and try to place into calculus this fall instead). The more you think about these things though, the more you panic.
I finally managed to beat back the panic late today, and went back to some trig stuff that had been totally baffling me in the morning. I didn't get it 100% the second time round, but I got most of it. It's just a state of mind I have to affirmatively avoid if I want to have a shot at doing this.
My pool opened now, which gives me a decent (and pleasant) study space away from most of my distractions as long as the weather holds. I'll be spending a lot of time there in the next few days, and trying to make every hour count.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Birds!
I've been back to my job for awhile now. It's getting more fun, now that I understand what to do and am starting to understand who's who. It's much easier even when you only recognize one or two nurses by name, and it feels a lot better when you're actually able to help people get the things they need.
The "Swine Flu" has been a big thing around here. Lots of people have come in, concerned they have it, and there's a whole process for getting them masks and in respiratory isolation. I don't know if/how many of them actually had it... probably not all that many, fortunately, but it's still exciting. If something serious ever did come around, the ER would be where everything got done. It's a bit scary, but pretty exciting too. I'd like to be a part of it.
People who think they have Swine Flu have stopped coming in as much, but something else came in today - a bird. People were chasing him around the ER to try and get him back outside (or out of the ER, at the very least). Once the bird got into the waiting room, some patients got upset. It had been a crowded day, and we'd been telling them how all the medical staff was busy (which was true). It's hard to explain how all the medical staff is busy when it 1/5 of them seem to be out in the waiting room trying to hunt a bird though. (The bird was safely taken outside eventually, after we trapped it in a towel.)
Speaking of the waiting room, it got a fantastic (and overdue, imo) renovation. The ER is still in the progress of getting renovated. I'm definitely more proud to be around there now; it's amazing what a few small changes can do.
My math studying is still in progress. It's slowed down some - not because I've been working less: I've been working much more, in fact - but because it's starting to be "real" math, instead of the other stuff that was much easier to review. Some of it I still have a few problems with, but some of it is kind of neat. I've been working with logarithms and natural logs lately, and remember that they used to give me trouble back in high school. Those things make perfect sense now, though, which is kind of cool.
The "Swine Flu" has been a big thing around here. Lots of people have come in, concerned they have it, and there's a whole process for getting them masks and in respiratory isolation. I don't know if/how many of them actually had it... probably not all that many, fortunately, but it's still exciting. If something serious ever did come around, the ER would be where everything got done. It's a bit scary, but pretty exciting too. I'd like to be a part of it.
People who think they have Swine Flu have stopped coming in as much, but something else came in today - a bird. People were chasing him around the ER to try and get him back outside (or out of the ER, at the very least). Once the bird got into the waiting room, some patients got upset. It had been a crowded day, and we'd been telling them how all the medical staff was busy (which was true). It's hard to explain how all the medical staff is busy when it 1/5 of them seem to be out in the waiting room trying to hunt a bird though. (The bird was safely taken outside eventually, after we trapped it in a towel.)
Speaking of the waiting room, it got a fantastic (and overdue, imo) renovation. The ER is still in the progress of getting renovated. I'm definitely more proud to be around there now; it's amazing what a few small changes can do.
My math studying is still in progress. It's slowed down some - not because I've been working less: I've been working much more, in fact - but because it's starting to be "real" math, instead of the other stuff that was much easier to review. Some of it I still have a few problems with, but some of it is kind of neat. I've been working with logarithms and natural logs lately, and remember that they used to give me trouble back in high school. Those things make perfect sense now, though, which is kind of cool.
I said I'd take the placement test in May, but I might try and push it off even a bit more. Hopefully I'll do well (enough) on it. What happens after that... we'll see.
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