It was every bit as awful as I'd thought it would be. I can't even imagine that I got the mean score on it this time... just... bad. I'd be surprised if I broke a 40% on it.
What surprises me more is that I'm not all that worked up about it. I'm not happy, sure. And I'm disappointed. But I seem to be taking it very much in stride (for better or for worse, I'm not entirely sure).
I think the next Physics test is our last one. I'd like to do .... somewhat better on it. I'm not entirely sure what I can do though. It's not like I can really study much more. And it's not like I'm entirely stupid... I've done just fine in my other classes, and my GPA from when I was a real undergraduate was pretty nice too. Something about Physics just freezes me up (and its probably the fact I can't do integrals.) I'll see if I can come up with something to do though. And who knows, maybe the last part will use less Calculus than e-fields did.
It looks like from today on out, the weather is going to be great. It's going to go up to 70, then 80, and I don't see it going back down into the 50's at any point again this year. Maybe that's a good sign.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Things Are Always So Busy
But there's good news!
Kuroyume, a great band that died ~1999, is supposed to be going to be putting out a CD again at some point in the (not too distant?) future.
http://kuroyume.jp/
What's that? You wanted good medically related news? Mmm'k, I can play that game too. I got a 112 on the Chemistry exam (silly, right? I thought so too). What's sillier is that, apparently, not everyone managed to score over a hundred on it. Go figure. I wasn't there the day they were handed back though, so, sadly, I can't say what the actual averages were this time.
The Physics test is tomorrow. Um... is getting it over good news? Cause that'll be done soon.
No news on my job though. I'm thinking I filled out a part of the form wrongly (misinterpreted the question, rather), and we have another Chemistry test coming up really soon. It's like the teacher just figured out that snow-week put us behind, and is trying to catch everything up right now. The stuff on this test is a bit trickier than the things we've been doing so far. Which isn't to say that it'll be a hard test... just that the potential to mess up badly on it is there if I don't take it seriously.
Overall though, once the Physics test is done with, I'll be feeling pretty good (unless my grade comes in way under the average...)
Kuroyume, a great band that died ~1999, is supposed to be going to be putting out a CD again at some point in the (not too distant?) future.
http://kuroyume.jp/
What's that? You wanted good medically related news? Mmm'k, I can play that game too. I got a 112 on the Chemistry exam (silly, right? I thought so too). What's sillier is that, apparently, not everyone managed to score over a hundred on it. Go figure. I wasn't there the day they were handed back though, so, sadly, I can't say what the actual averages were this time.
The Physics test is tomorrow. Um... is getting it over good news? Cause that'll be done soon.
No news on my job though. I'm thinking I filled out a part of the form wrongly (misinterpreted the question, rather), and we have another Chemistry test coming up really soon. It's like the teacher just figured out that snow-week put us behind, and is trying to catch everything up right now. The stuff on this test is a bit trickier than the things we've been doing so far. Which isn't to say that it'll be a hard test... just that the potential to mess up badly on it is there if I don't take it seriously.
Overall though, once the Physics test is done with, I'll be feeling pretty good (unless my grade comes in way under the average...)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I'm Getting a Job!
Well... maybe. I applied for one, at least.
I found out that there are some area hospitals that are willing to hire students as medical scribes. Basically, you get to follow a doctor around the ER, and record patient complaints, histories, medical information, etc, etc. It's not a particularly glamorous job, but it would be neat.
I'd get great clinical experience for my medical school applications (assuming they let me apply with physics going the way it is....), since I'd be right there next to every patient, every day. I'd get good experience with a medical schedule, working crazy shifts with random hours throughout the night.
Most importantly, I wouldn't be a fifth wheel like I felt (at times) when I was volunteering. And I'd get paid. Not much, but I'd get paid. Which is nice, it makes you feel like you belong a bit. I /think/ I might even get my very own scrubs.
This is all getting ahead of myself though, I have no clue if they'll want to hire me, or even need to hire anyone.
It would be extra stress, and extra work. Obviously. But I think I'd like to have an actual job right now. I'd feel like less of a "left behind" undergraduate student, and more like part of something important. And if the whole MD thing does end up collapsing because of physics, this would still be great experience for any other future job in the medical field.
I found out that there are some area hospitals that are willing to hire students as medical scribes. Basically, you get to follow a doctor around the ER, and record patient complaints, histories, medical information, etc, etc. It's not a particularly glamorous job, but it would be neat.
I'd get great clinical experience for my medical school applications (assuming they let me apply with physics going the way it is....), since I'd be right there next to every patient, every day. I'd get good experience with a medical schedule, working crazy shifts with random hours throughout the night.
Most importantly, I wouldn't be a fifth wheel like I felt (at times) when I was volunteering. And I'd get paid. Not much, but I'd get paid. Which is nice, it makes you feel like you belong a bit. I /think/ I might even get my very own scrubs.
This is all getting ahead of myself though, I have no clue if they'll want to hire me, or even need to hire anyone.
It would be extra stress, and extra work. Obviously. But I think I'd like to have an actual job right now. I'd feel like less of a "left behind" undergraduate student, and more like part of something important. And if the whole MD thing does end up collapsing because of physics, this would still be great experience for any other future job in the medical field.
Monday, March 22, 2010
So We Have Health Care Reform
... does that mean I can stop taking Physics?
No? Damn.
I haven't posted in awhile, mostly because nothing exciting has been going on. I could keep complaining about how Physics is ruining my life, but even I get tired of that after awhile. Today though, we had our second Chemistry test.
The test went great. Hopefully I got over 100% this time. Maybe not. :: shrug :: Not like a 110% can get me a better GPA than a 100% anyways, I guess. Lab has been much more difficult than the class itself, actually. There's little mini-quizes each week that are easy to occasionally not be ready for, and the TA is a pretty hard grader on the reports (although I think he's fantastic). I should probably try to focus a bit more on the lab part, it would be a shame if I somehow ended up with an A- instead of an A because I was slacking in Lab.
The next Physics test is next week. I'm pretty sure I'll get under a 50%. I can't even explain how badly I expect it to go without having it sound like hyperbole, so I don't think I'll try. I'm going to study a lot for that test regardless though. Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky and crack a D- ~.~.
Course registration is coming up. I haven't had luck getting in touch with my advisors yet, which is a bit frustrating. I plan to take Biology this summer though, which will be a welcome break after Physics. I'll wrap things up (I think?) with the harder Organic Chemistry starting in the fall semester.
It's hard to say how much Physics has hurt me at this point. Maybe I won't even really know after the class is finished. That's definitely frustrating, but in the absence of a convincing reason to quit I'm going to go plow ahead anyways. I mean... hey... it's not like I have a plan B ~.~.
Edit: Google is being annoying, and wanting people to get some new account for this. I think that might finally get me to make my own site, when time frees up a bit. I'll see if I'm still annoyed over it next week.
No? Damn.
I haven't posted in awhile, mostly because nothing exciting has been going on. I could keep complaining about how Physics is ruining my life, but even I get tired of that after awhile. Today though, we had our second Chemistry test.
The test went great. Hopefully I got over 100% this time. Maybe not. :: shrug :: Not like a 110% can get me a better GPA than a 100% anyways, I guess. Lab has been much more difficult than the class itself, actually. There's little mini-quizes each week that are easy to occasionally not be ready for, and the TA is a pretty hard grader on the reports (although I think he's fantastic). I should probably try to focus a bit more on the lab part, it would be a shame if I somehow ended up with an A- instead of an A because I was slacking in Lab.
The next Physics test is next week. I'm pretty sure I'll get under a 50%. I can't even explain how badly I expect it to go without having it sound like hyperbole, so I don't think I'll try. I'm going to study a lot for that test regardless though. Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky and crack a D- ~.~.
Course registration is coming up. I haven't had luck getting in touch with my advisors yet, which is a bit frustrating. I plan to take Biology this summer though, which will be a welcome break after Physics. I'll wrap things up (I think?) with the harder Organic Chemistry starting in the fall semester.
It's hard to say how much Physics has hurt me at this point. Maybe I won't even really know after the class is finished. That's definitely frustrating, but in the absence of a convincing reason to quit I'm going to go plow ahead anyways. I mean... hey... it's not like I have a plan B ~.~.
Edit: Google is being annoying, and wanting people to get some new account for this. I think that might finally get me to make my own site, when time frees up a bit. I'll see if I'm still annoyed over it next week.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
I Can Explain How Sunsets Work
... so why am I doing so badly in Physics?
The thought just struck me an hour ago, when I opened the shades on my wall-window, and saw a gorgeous sunset. Then I realized I knew why it was gorgeous, and how Rayleigh Scattering is responsible for producing all the varying colors as light hits objects in the air (normally the sky is blue from our perspective, but because light has to travel further through air to our eyes when the sun is on the horizontal at sunrise/sunset, the blue light has more time to scatter, leaving a stronger impression of the reds and oranges that have larger wavelengths).
Neat, huh?
Spring break starts this Friday. I'm going to have to work really hard throughout to try and get ready for the next test, because I'm just not understanding things again. They're trying to use (mildly) complicated integrals that I can't follow, because I only took the first semester of Calculus (which was all I had to take for med school and, apparently, the only prerequisite for this physics class). I can hardly read the text book though, at some points. I might as well be staring at a wall. And I don't have enough time to teach myself integrals at the moment.
What to do, what to do.
Just keep going, I guess, and hope enough other people are unable to follow that my grade will get curved up to something respectable. And then hope serious calculus physics problems aren't on the MCAT. Or, at least, that they don't feature prominently.
The thought just struck me an hour ago, when I opened the shades on my wall-window, and saw a gorgeous sunset. Then I realized I knew why it was gorgeous, and how Rayleigh Scattering is responsible for producing all the varying colors as light hits objects in the air (normally the sky is blue from our perspective, but because light has to travel further through air to our eyes when the sun is on the horizontal at sunrise/sunset, the blue light has more time to scatter, leaving a stronger impression of the reds and oranges that have larger wavelengths).
Neat, huh?
Spring break starts this Friday. I'm going to have to work really hard throughout to try and get ready for the next test, because I'm just not understanding things again. They're trying to use (mildly) complicated integrals that I can't follow, because I only took the first semester of Calculus (which was all I had to take for med school and, apparently, the only prerequisite for this physics class). I can hardly read the text book though, at some points. I might as well be staring at a wall. And I don't have enough time to teach myself integrals at the moment.
What to do, what to do.
Just keep going, I guess, and hope enough other people are unable to follow that my grade will get curved up to something respectable. And then hope serious calculus physics problems aren't on the MCAT. Or, at least, that they don't feature prominently.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Sometimes I Wonder...
If other people feel as stressed and behind as I do. I'm figuring they must, unless I have some odd disorder. If this last year and a half or so of getting averages on tests in subjects I'm bad at has shown me anything though, it's that at the very least half of the people around me should be worse off, if not much more. ... unless they just don't care. ... or unless I have some weird psychological problem. Both cases are possible, but I don't think either is really likely.
It's funny. It's just small stuff adding up... and I get really stressed.
I'm not particularly behind in anything. It would be nice if I was a bit more ahead of the game in Physics, but I'm not problematically behind or anything. I was behind on a Chemistry lab report, but I got it done in time. When all was said and done, I got it done fairly well even.... I think.
And then I have an awful Chemistry lab. Not really through any fault of my own. Or not /mainly/ through any fault of my own, rather. Someone else switched two containers of chemicals, and I didn't pick up on it. So I was trying to make reactions happen with four parts A, instead of three parts A and one part B. ... It didn't work out, obviously.
It got me more frustrated than you'd expect. And then I started getting frustrated about being a tiny bit behind in Physics, and then.... well... it hasn't really stopped yet.
It's hard to explain though. I'm feeling down over it all, but it's so irrational I'm not really taking it seriously either.
It's funny. It's just small stuff adding up... and I get really stressed.
I'm not particularly behind in anything. It would be nice if I was a bit more ahead of the game in Physics, but I'm not problematically behind or anything. I was behind on a Chemistry lab report, but I got it done in time. When all was said and done, I got it done fairly well even.... I think.
And then I have an awful Chemistry lab. Not really through any fault of my own. Or not /mainly/ through any fault of my own, rather. Someone else switched two containers of chemicals, and I didn't pick up on it. So I was trying to make reactions happen with four parts A, instead of three parts A and one part B. ... It didn't work out, obviously.
It got me more frustrated than you'd expect. And then I started getting frustrated about being a tiny bit behind in Physics, and then.... well... it hasn't really stopped yet.
It's hard to explain though. I'm feeling down over it all, but it's so irrational I'm not really taking it seriously either.
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